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Have you ever looked back on where you came from? I have, and I want to share my life story—so far.
My ChildhoodMy parents are the Rev. LaVerne R. Howard and LoRena Nadene (Baker) Howard. My dad was employed as a student pastor at a church in Swannington, Indiana, while he was still attending Garrett-Evangelical Theological Seminary in Naperville, Illinois. My mom was a homemaker, seamstress, and played piano and taught Sunday school. My mom lost a number of pregnancies since their 1951 marriage, and her doctor told her she had a 1 in 100 chance of carrying a child to full term. So in 1960 she and my dad adopted a baby girl whom they named Lezlee Kay. Two years later, I was born April 2 at Home Hospital in Lafayette, Indiana. We relocated to Otterbein, Indiana, in 1964, where Dad pastored the Otterbein Evangelical United Brethren Church (now United Methodist). In 1967 we moved east to the Swiss community of Berne, Indiana, where I grew up in a wonderful small town and started elementary school. I remember these as the happiest days of my life. It was in Berne that I learned to read and began writing stories.
My AdolescenceIn 1971 we moved again to Hazen, Pennsylvania, where my dad pastored a charge of five United Methodist churches. I entered fourth grade at Brookville Elementary School. I explored rural life and continued to write poetry and short stories. (I loved ghost stories. Still do!)
I graduated high school in 1980. I had worked part-time as a busboy and lifeguard and in a brick factory. (I remember these jobs as being miserable, but thankfully they motivated me to get an education.) In Fall 1980 I began my undergraduate studies at the Indiana University of Pennsylvania, taking as many writing courses as I could get. I graduated with honors in 1984, B.A. in English.
Following college, I moved to Rockville, Maryland, where I held a couple of jobs as a word processor because I could type over 100 words per minute. It was during my 18 months in Rockville that I experienced a religious conversion to Christianity, what is commonly termed being “born again.”
In 1985 I started working as a technical writer for the software industry. My parents introduced me to Linda Crawford, one of the youth ministers at the church where my dad was pastor in McKeesport, PA. We maintained a long-distance relationship for a year, and I proposed marriage in 1986. We married May 2, 1987, and began living east of Pittsburgh.
We attended church and became involved in the Charismatic movement. I experienced the baptism of the Holy Spirit with speaking in tongues and became involved in the prophetic movement. I earned a master of arts degree in biblical studies in 1996 via correspondence from Christian International School of Theology, Santa Rosa Beach, Florida.
In 2002, Linda and I moved to McKeesport, Pennsylvania, and started God’s Plan Ministries, now defunct, as a house church. I also founded a Christian publishing company called Beautiful Feet Publishing, Inc. (now dissolved), through which I published a number of biblical teaching books, most of which I donated overseas to Christian missions in English-speaking countries. In 2005 Linda and I separated amicably and dissolved the ministry, divorcing in February 2006. We sold our McKeesport home and I moved to Pittsburgh, where I came out as a gay man.
I graduated from Seton Hill University in Greensburg, Pennsylvania, in June 2006 with a master of arts in Writing Popular Fiction. My thesis was supernatural thriller Death Perception.
Realizing I was no longer welcome in the conservative Christian church, in 2007 I was surprised to experience a strong energetic presence that initiated a profound consciousness-expanding experience, which launched me into the study of metaphysics, mediumship, and the New Age. That’s when I realized my calling to be a “spokesman, prophet, and mouthpiece” for God.
Dealing with my orientation in a family and religious environment that considered homosexuality to be an abomination, I always struggled for acceptance and often was badgered by thoughts of suicide. I wrote about this experience in Response to a Concerned Heterosexual Christian (2012).
Spiritualism and My Call to Mediumship
After my youngest nephew took his life at age 20, I resolved that suicide was no solution to my own lifelong depression. Yet this tragedy fueled my interest in life after death. I began to study about Spiritualism and mediumship, enrolling in the Morris Pratt Institute. In less than a year I graduated with a degree in Spiritualism, mediumship, and spiritual healing in 2011.
For a few years I attended the First Spiritualist Church of Greater Pittsburgh, where I spoke and delivered messages from the Other Side. During this time I wrote How to Tell If Your House Is Haunted (formerly In Defense of Departed Spirits), about humane treatment of departed spirits that manifest in the home environment.In 2013 I enrolled at Fellowships of the Spirit School of Spiritual Healing and Prophecy in Lily Dale, New York, under the mentorship of the Rev. Elaine Thomas.
In July 2014 I relocated from Pittsburgh to Jamestown, New York, to begin my public ministry as a medium, metaphysician, and channel.
Now I’m concentrating on channeling from the fifth dimension. My primary message and calling is to help spiritual seekers build the bridge of light, the rainbow bridge, from your waking consciousness to higher consciousness for spiritual guidance.
I hope you’ve enjoyed my story. It’s been quite a journey, and I’m excited about what Spirit has next!
—Rev. Lee Allen Howard, Medium & Metaphysician
During my first channeling session (#203) after the sale of my Pittsburgh house, I thanked my guides that it had sold, just as they said it would. They replied with a renewal of my calling, which I accepted two years ago.
For have we not promised that all things would come to pass, even as we have said? For we have gone before you, and we have connected you with the right buyer, and we have brought the sale to fruition. For we desire you to be free of those obligations, so that you will be able to establish yourself here.
For this is now your home base, for not only your life, but your ministry. We have called you to this place to expand. We have called you to this place to flourish and to bloom and to blossom into the ministry to which we’ve called you.
The purpose in selling my Pittsburgh house and buying and moving to my new home in Jamestown, New York, was to be established at a new home base for my life and ministry. Just as I wrote about crossing the Jordan River from the desert into the Promised Land, I have entered the land of my true calling. This is the abrupt right turn my guides told me about in 2011.
Spirit Reiterates My Call
For surely you are called to be a spokesman, a mouthpiece, and a prophet. And we shall speak through you. We shall interpret dreams of yours and of others. We shall channel messages of the highest order through you to individuals and to groups. We will speak through you of messages. We will help you to see, to understand, and to relay the information that is delivered from Spirit unto those who come to seek your counsel.
For more information, see:
- The Spokesman, Prophet, Mouthpiece
- How to Interpret Your Dreams
- My First Higher Channeling Session
- Clairvoyant Vision: Channeling Energy to Earth
A Change in Energy
We are now beginning to change the energy about you so that you may be able to receive in a new way that which we desire to show you and that which we desire to communicate to you and through you.
Words alone do not change hearts. It is the energy, the anointing, of Spirit Life which attends the words that changes hearts and brings revelation and healing.
Here Come the Angels
Know that we will attend you with angels; know that we will attend you with signs and wonders, for we desire to confirm the words and the messages that we deliver through you. Know that we will tell you things ahead of time, and we will be able to speak them through you to others so that they will know what is next on their path. They will return with confirmation; they will return with awe and wonderment at the words that have come to pass that you have spoken to them.
My guides seem to be saying here that as I channel and minister prophetically, Spirit will confirm the messages with signs and wonders through the ministry of angels. As my guides told me many things ahead of time concerning the sale of my house, they will provide the same future-telling ministry to those I speak to. They said I as well as the hearers would receive confirmation that Spirit’s messages were true. I look forward to this.
A Healing Presence
We will lay bare the secrets of the heart so that you may be able share, so that they may be able to be healed. We desire to heal through you. We desire to touch the hearts of others and their minds, their emotions, their bodies. Know that a healing presence will attend you in all that you speak.
Spirit will reveal the needs of the heart so that those who receive ministry may be healed and made whole. My guides say that “a healing presence will attend” me as I speak. This is the true purpose of mediumship: healing of the soul. I want to partner with that healing presence, the same presence who has healed me over the years and who desires to heal others.
Trust. Relinquish your anxieties, and trust, knowing that Spirit will be there to support you and to work through you. For we desire fit vessels, we desire willing vessels, to do the Master’s work.
This is the hardest part for me. I am confident in my channeling—that I am receiving genuine communication from higher realms. My guides have provided too much confirmation for me to doubt this.
But I still have a hard time when they tell me such things. Who, me? Yet I am willing to do my part, and if my guides have kept their word in other matters, they will continue to support me as I step out in faith to speak.
When Opportunity Knocks…
We will align the appointments that you need to make with others to fulfill your projects for school and also to reach out in ministry to others who need your services. Know that we are going before you. Shrink not back from any opportunity, but know that when opportunities come, it is because Spirit has sent them.
Do your best to represent yourself honestly, and do what you must to make connections, and we will begin to establish you in the work that we have called you to do.
Here, my guidance promises to handle some administration for me, setting up appointments for school readings and client ministry. As hard as I push and as quickly as I go, they say they’re ahead of me.
The hardest part here is not shrinking from any opportunity. Seems that when opportunity knocks, I have an anxiety attack. ;-) I need to work more on believing in myself. They’re not my words, anyway, are they?
Energy Will Bring a Shift
We will attend you with energy. Know that this shift is coming and that it will bring a change in the way you receive information and the way that you deliver information. Fret not, but go with the flow. It will not be a sudden change, but it will be a gradual adjustment in the way that you receive and the way that you transmit.
This is all in our plan. Embrace it so that we may bring you up to the next level. For we desire you to be the first of many in your work for Spirit from your new home base.
Again, they remind me that as I channel and give messages, Spirit will attend me with energy that will change the way I receive and deliver information. I’m thankful for their reassurance that it won’t be an abrupt change. Now, to welcome it as they suggest.
Next time, I’ll share the news about the beginning of my public channeling ministry. Until then, blessings in love and light.
—Rev. Lee Allen Howard, Medium & Metaphysician
This is the tenth in a series concerning a vision about dominoes, synchronicities, and how they led to building the bridge of light—the cosmic connection through which I link to higher realms of Spirit for psychic communication and channeling.
In the year following my first channeling session, I came across the material of Sandra Roman and Duane Packer, authors of the excellent book Opening to Channel. I downloaded some audio courses from their site: http://orindaben.com/.
On February 17, 2011, I did their Opening to Channel audio course exercises 8–10, “Verbally Channeling Your Guide,” in which I asked their recommended questions of K. I then held my twentieth channeling session. Here are some things my guide said during the session. (I record all my channeling sessions using my digital recorder and then transcribe.)
What is your name?
I am K___ of the Elohim, ruler in Israel and high ascended master.
The prefix or suffix el means “god” or “deity.” El is also appended to Hebrew names such as Joel (meaning God wills or commands), Ezekiel (strength of God), Daniel (judgment of God).
The singular is Eloah; the plural Elohim—gods. The latter appears many times in the Old Testament, for example, Psalm 82:1: “God has taken his place in the divine council; in the midst of the gods [Elohim] he holds judgment” (ESV). This is the Elohim of whom the Hebrew patriarch Jacob said:
“May God [Elohim], in whose presence my grandfather Abraham and my father Isaac walked,
may God [Elohim], who has been my shepherd all my life to this very day, …the Messenger, who has rescued me from all evil…”
–Genesis 48:15-16a GWT
As a member of the Elohim, K stands in the divine council. To me he is shepherd, protector, and most of all, Messenger.
The Hebrew term benei elohim (“sons of the gods”) is used in Genesis 6:2. I found esoteric tidbits about the history of the Elohim in the Urantia Book.
Some interesting information trance-channeled by Xiota Lahmpsa Mataare is transcribed at http://www.salemctr.com/newage/center31.html, in which the channeled entity Merlin claims that the Elohim—”those who came from the sky”—are non-Earth humans and one of the most advanced and the oldest remaining beings in our universe.
Some of the Elohim supposedly had a contest to see who could successfully develop human beings adapted to this planet. It is said that Yahweh, the god of ancient Israel, won the contest. K claims that, as a member of the Elohim, he is a “brother” to Yahweh.
The Elohim allegedly have continued to influence our evolution:
Throughout history, the Elohim have come to Earth. They came to Earth at different times, to different cultures, and they heavily influenced these cultures throughout history. They were thought to be the Gods and spirits and so forth of the many existing religions which exist today. The Elohim heavily influenced these religions along a moral structure to help the people of this Earth survive successfully and viably. Therefore, when this didn’t work, it became political influence to help establish order. Still, to this day, the Elohim are involved in Earthly matters.
Although this is fascinating, of course I cannot confirm it nor Mataare’s channeled information. I continued my questions to K.
Is there a way I can know that you are here?
I heard no answer but I felt waves of energy and saw shifting colors with my eyes closed. This often happens when I’m channeling; I believe my guides are adjusting my energy to strengthen our communications link.
What direction is our work together going to take? What areas are you here to assist with?
I desire to speak through you. For you are called to be a spokesman and a prophet.
K said he was preparing me to speak for him.
Have we connected before? What are you here at this time to assist me with?
We have worked together for many lifetimes. We are here together now to continue that work: to raise the consciousness of this race; to build a bridge for communication between realms.
Medium Rose Vanden Eynden confirmed this. K and I are simply continuing our tasks from a previous incarnation. Our work is to help raise human consciousness and to build a bridge of communication to Higher Consciousness.
You said to submit to your tutelage that I might learn and grow and become that which I’m destined to be. What am I destined to be?
You are destined to be a spokesman, a mouthpiece, and a prophet. For we have communication from on high that we desire to give through you. We desire you to establish a channel that we might speak through you, and that we might relay the ideas, the information, and the energies to your race that it might draw it up higher, that it might raise its energies and vibrations, and make that connection each for himself, that you might receive and connect with realms on high and learn, each of you, what your purpose is.
This paragraph sums up my purpose and call in this incarnation. “Spokesman, prophet, mouthpiece” are his words, and it has taken me a long time to accept them. Whether or not I feel worthy of the calling, I am to channel ideas, information, and energy from the realms of light to raise consciousness so that others may learn to connect to Spirit/Higher Mind in order to learn and live their purpose.
Next time, I’ll share about how to build the bridge of light.
- How I Began Channeling
- The Mechanics of Recorded Channeling
- Part 1: The Dominoes and the Bridge
- Part 2: Receiving Your Breakthrough
- Part 3: Prophecy of the Gold, Jewel-Studded Dominoes
- Part 4: My Job Description for a New Guide
- Part 5: I Meet My New Spirit Guide
- Part 6: My First Higher Channeling Session
- Part 7: A Medium Confirms My Guides and Channeling
- Part 8: Spiritual Teaching and Healing: My History and Future
- Part 9: Synchronicity and the Interpretation of Tongues
- I Accept My Calling
- The Spokesman, Prophet, Mouthpiece
My guide said he would “open my eyes” ten years before I started seeing clairvoyantly with any regularity. Even after I learned to see, my higher-dimensional clairvoyance didn’t blossom until 2011. That’s when I first experienced “vista vision.”
My Very First “Vista Vision”
In 2010 I voraciously read everything I could get my hands on concerning channeling. I then called for and invited a new guide to connect with me. (It was actually a master-teacher guide I’ve worked throughout many previous lifetimes. He is now my primary guide.) The first time I met this guide (in this life) and consciously channeled his thoughts, he told me, “I have desired you to see through my eyes” (May 29, 2010).
It wasn’t until February 6, 2011, that I reviewed my 2010 channeling and asked him, “How do I see through your eyes?”
He answered for himself and the other guides in his collective, “As we descend to you to enter your vibration, set your mind to ascend to us. As you open and yield yourself to me, I will open and yield myself to you.” This is the concept of “meeting in the middle” I discussed in The Waterfall of Light and Revelation, Part 3.
“Can we try this now?” I asked. Here’s what I experienced, as recorded in my channeling session notes:
I feel pressure on my eyes and on the bridge of my nose, and sense myself ascending and entering in. (The place I felt pressure was where I was entering in to him.) Then I see this kind of a vista, or landscape. It’s not horizontal… it’s… spherical… a view from one of those panoramic cameras, or a planetarium room where you’re surrounded on all sides by the movie screen. I feel like I’m up on a high pinnacle where I can see everywhere across a vast plain.
My guide said, “Although you may not understand it, this is my perspective.”
This was my first experience of “vista vision”—of rising to a higher plane of consciousness and seeing clairvoyantly in that dimension through my guide’s eyes.
I had finally reached the point where I would be able to see the panoramic sweep of my life and ministry. But regular clairvoyance on this dimension did not develop for some time.
“If you can hear, you can see.”
In 2011 I was figuring out that practicing clairvoyance was a participatory thing with my guides.
For over two decades, I’ve believed that any time I sit down, quiet myself, and seek to connect with Spirit, my guide will speak to me. Any time. I have complete reliance on clairaudience. But for some reason, I couldn’t apply this confidence to clairvoyance, even though my guide once told me 20 years ago,
I have called you from the womb to hear my voice and to see my visions. As I taught my prophet Jeremiah, so shall I teach you to hear my voice and to see in the spirit what I show you by my Spirit. I will teach you. I will lead you. I will guide you. Do not be afraid, and do not hesitate, but step out in faith to see what I would show you, and write it down as you would those things that I speak to you. It is a different anointing, but the same principle. If you can hear, you can see. If I will speak to you any time, I will show you visions any time you quiet yourself and focus your spiritual eyes on things above. (Apr. 24, 1993)
Basically, receiving clairvoyant images operates by faith (see Rom. 12:6). You must trust the source of the information, but use your own will and exercise your abilities to receive what’s offered.
It took me a long time to understand that Spirit is not withholding from me the operation of any psychic ability. The responsibility is mine to study and practice what I want to experience. If you show yourself faithful to apply yourself to learning and trying, Spirit will take notice and give you a boost. Whatever your endeavor, keep trying. Don’t give up.
Later in 2011, I asked my guide to show me a clairvoyant image, and he did. Stay tuned for the farmer in the corn.
My guide said he would show me a new vista of ministry after my clairvoyance developed on a higher dimension. This expanded vision would foster a broader view of the past, present, and future, displaying my life events over time in a panorama. Viewing this panorama would birth a greater understanding of my purpose and call.
Before I could experience “vista vision,” however, I had to learn to see.
Learning to See
Way back in 2002, long before my psychic awakening, my guide told me some unprecedented things about spiritual sight.
I am calling you to see into the Spirit, even the deep things of God, and speak forth my heart and my mind in this hour. I will open your eyes. I will clarify your vision. You will see far, my son, with crystal clarity. At times I will give you a telescope. At other times, I will give you a microscope. And at still other times, I will give you X-ray vision to see what I desire to show you. I will open your eyes. I will sharpen your sight. And as you look, I will reveal to you what I desire you to know by my Spirit.
Do not close your eyes, but open them and exercise the vision I have given you. OPEN YOUR EYES, and I will show you my plan. (Oct. 24, 2002)
Okay. But I had no idea how to do it—to just open my third eye and start seeing clairvoyantly. I didn’t even know what my third eye was! Occasionally I experienced incidents of psychic sight, but I couldn’t initiate it at will. (I had learned to do so with clairaudience, though.)
Eight years later on May 29, 2010, he said, “I desire to open your eyes.”
Okay, I’ve heard this before. So on June 8, 2010, I asked him, “How do I learn to see?”
Continue to practice your exercises. Continue to stretch yourself when you relax—when you take naps, when you go to bed for the night, when you wake up. Practice seeing, and clairvoyant light will dawn. At first you will see glimpses. Trust in what you see. Question what you see. I will teach you as I show you.
That’s better, thank you. (Sometimes my guide tells me stuff as if I understand. Usually, I don’t. I can be pretty dense sometimes…) So I needed to practice when I saw little flashes during relaxation.
Two days later a totem messenger appeared in the form of a dragonfly. Using its advent as an object lesson, my guide stepped in and spoke to me about it:
Everywhere you look, everywhere you turn, you see these images. They flit about; I bring them before you, I set them before you that you may see and notice them and take note. … The quickness and the colors that you see are the skills that you are called to develop with clairvoyance. As the wings hover about the body of the dragonfly, so do colors of the aura and thought forms flit about the bodies and the minds of men. I will show you how to interpret them, I will show you how to navigate with them.
The following week I had a startling encounter with a big blacksnake in my backyard. I researched its totem meaning and learned that before snakes shed their skin, their eyes cloud over. Once they fully shed their old skin, their eyes clear up, and they emerge ready for new growth.
This is the process I’ve been through the past two years. Like St. Paul, scales are being removed from my eyes.
In 2010 I started Matrix Energetics training, which jump-started my clairvoyance. At my first seminar, I was working with a young woman during a practice session, narrating what I saw in my imagination.
I told her, “I see a green lizard on top of your head. Now it crawls down your back and disappears.” Green lizard? She must think I’m crazy.
She turned around and lifted her shirt. This was the tattoo on her back:
I was flabbergasted, but I was learning to see!
Yet it wasn’t until 2011 that my higher-dimensional clairvoyance began to blossom.
Next time, you’ll experience “vista vision” with me!
Last time, I shared a dream that Spirit used to illustrate how I needed to step back and look at the big picture of my life events. It helped me to undersand what my guide had been telling me. But how would this happen in reality?
Spirit had a plan for how I would experience this perspective—and Spirit has a plan for you.
My guide promised to open a new vista of ministry to me after I crossed the Jordan. He said this release would be prefaced by an increase in clairvoyant sight on a higher dimension. This expanded vision would provide a broader perceptual view of the past, present, and future, displaying my life events over time in a panorama (like the walkway in my dream). Viewing this panorama would birth a greater understanding of my purpose and call.
But first, I had to develop the tools to see and understand this panoramic view.
Psychic Development Required
Understanding and fulfilling your spiritual purpose for this incarnation requires development of your higher energy centers: the fifth, sixth, and seventh chakras.
My guide encouraged this progression in my own development on October 25, 2007:
You have heard my voice. Now open your mind that you might receive from me all that I have to show you. … I will open your eyes. … For I have much to show you, but you need a basis of understanding, and you need to expand your mind. … I desire to expand your gifts and your abilities to hear from me. I desire to show you great and mighty things you know not. This is in preparation for my plan, my panoramic plan that I would show you.
My development as a medium and a channeler began when I trained myself way back in 1989 to write down what I heard my guide speaking. This evidenced the opening of the fifth chakra, which is responsible for clairaudience. But my guide was saying that my sixth and seventh chakras needed to become active before I could comprehend his panoramic plan for my life.
The sixth chakra, called the third eye, is the energy center through which you see clairvoyantly. And the seventh chakra, the crown, is responsible for connection to higher realms and the communication of abstract concepts and spiritually advanced information—”great and mighty things which you know not,” referring to things impossible to know through only the conscious, unenlightened mind (see Jer. 33:3).
First, I heard clairaudiently. Then I would see clairvoyantly. Finally, my mind would expand. Only with these higher abilities functioning would I be able to understand Spirit’s higher purpose revealed in the panoramic plan.
“There are things you must first learn before I can show you the plan,” said my guide. Good, old-fashioned study, meditation, and psychic practice paved the way for my personal advancement. It will do the same for you.
Finding Your Purpose
Renowned trance medium Arthur Ford, in his autobiography Nothing So Strange, said, “I [have] never known an individual who prayed insistently to find the will of God for his life who did not develop some measure of extrasensory awareness.” Discovering your purpose goes hand in hand with spiritual and psychic development.
If you want to find your spiritual purpose for this life, consider the following:
- Develop a basis for understanding through study. What are you hungry to learn about? Feed that desire and see where it takes you.
- Learn and gain experiential knowledge. Play on your own. Practice your psychic abilities. Play with others.
- Expand your mind. Meditate and ponder what you learn and experience. Keep studying and ask Spirit to direct your learning and teach you directly what you need to know. Trust what you get.
- Open your higher energy centers. Again, study and practice. Take advantage of psychic development workshops if you can. Practice daily meditation.
- Receive the plan. Your guide is in charge of this. But when you’ve made yourself ready, Spirit won’t delay in revealing it to you, because you don’t have forever to make your mark in this lifetime.
You’ve got a purpose, and the reason you’re here is to fulfill it. Give yourself wholly to it, and you’ll make the world a better place. God bless you.
Next time, we’ll discover what “vista vision” is.